Keep calm and fake it

When things happen in life that suck, it’s easy to feel sorry for yourself. Something happened to me today I failed an exam that cost hundreds of dollars and is just one in a series I have to take for my professional career. I studied for over a month and 5 days before the exam I got significantly life changing news. Life altering, crying my eyes out, won’t ever be the same again news. I couldn’t reschedule because it was less than 3 business days from this exam, so I had to just take it. Skip ahead 3 weeks, things with work have gone to shit, in a weird place with the boyfriend (still together and in love just got a shit load more complicated) and today, a day before my Birthday I get the news that I failed that exam. I want to cry but I’m at work and don’t want to give the people here who seem to feed off of the weak any more nourishment today.

I can think of 20 ways my life could get or be worse. I know how lucky I am, I know how fortunate I am, but it still hurts. Puts me back 6 months in a plan I had. Just this morning I was thinking about how things work out like they’re suppose to. So I guess I should carry on with that idea and say to myself,

Hey there missy… this is gonna work out just fine. You’ll look back in 6 months when you’ve spent another couple of hundred dollars and given up a few more months of your life to studying all this information that your field requires you to hire someone else to do but you still have to know and then spend 5 ½ hours in a room taking an exam and you’ll be in a better place. Somehow this will all work out.

Fake smile to myself… carry on.

Put that on a shirt… Keep calm and fake it.

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